The 'ONE'

Is there actually such a thing? Like people spend their lives looking for the 'one' and only person who will make them happy. Men and Women alike. but then everything gets so misconstrued. people start to think the 'ONE' is a tall dark and handsome man, with millions, great hair, and a body to match. but then when we think like this the people who actually exist in the world get looked over and ignored. yes there are the few people who actually are tall dark and handsome, with a great body with millions, but my theory is that they found the hot girls and are married to them now and live on their private islands.

I use to be a hopeless romantic, I'd sit down with my diary for days writing how my husband would be the best guy, how he would do these sweet things, and how we could never be separated. But then after those childish years left me and I began to see reality, I realized that that might just never happen. There are those people that settle, or make mistakes and marry the wrong person. That reminds me of that movie again 'he's just not that into you' (yea i think it's stuck in my head). During one scene these two girls are talking about how one of them met this married man and that he's the perfect guy for her. and her friend decides to offer her a few 'words of wisdom' she says to her friend who she turns into a home wrecker that 'what if you get married and then you find your soul mate later?'

and that made me think. the amount of people that cheat in America did they just find their soul mate? haha no that's giving them to much credit. some do it just for the jollys.

but really what if you settle or make a mistake and then the 'ONE' pops out of thin air and swoops you off your feet??

but any ways back to reality, i beleive the 'one' does not exist, or is that me just being a pessimist/realist (which I very much am). but come on, who can believe that there is a certain person out there, just ONE person God has created just for you? if i have one he has obviously lost his way and is not asking for directions. so for now i'll be the one doing the leg work and people watching looking for a guy that resembles the one until he finds his way to me (if he exists).

The Turn Down

Have you ever had a time when you noticed your friend liked you more than a friend?

I have but it was me the one doing the liking. I have recently watched 'he's just not that into you' and it has been racking my brain for the longest. one thing is, one of the male characters said 'if a guy likes you he will make it happen'. and in the past lets just say none of them have made it happen.

But I have a friend, I knew him in High school. we were not that close. we talked a few time but nothing serious. I did not find him attractive at all, but we would still flirt some times. I think things may have gotten lost in translation. Just recently he's been facebooking me and stuff, saying how we don't hang out, and i'm like pick a day and we can. I've been home for a couple of months now and nothing. then just when I am about to leave he tries to set a date. and like everything he's saying to me is no longer the friend type, but romantic interest type. I play these things aloof all the time, and it has really helped me.

so the movie quote popped up in my head: 'if he likes you he'll make it happen', and so far he has been trying really hard to make it happen. texting me, facebooking me, just to see if i can go to the movies with him. I tried to turn him down in the nicest way by saying I can't go I am broke as heck so theres no way for me to take a bus or a train or see the movie. then he opts to pay the whole thing. Who doesn't like free things?! i sure as hell do, but not when they come with something like that behinde it. it feels weird to drag someone along and I wouldn't do that to anyone because i wouldn't want it to be done to me. so here I am, stuck in a jam trying to get out of this sticky situation when TA DA! it comes to me. he had said to meet him at ruggles and he'll pay the rest of the way, so i took that and ran with it. I told him I have no means of getting to ruggles because i have no money. problem solved, and no awkward incounter for me. but i'm left here feeling like crap. did i give him the run around? did i make him think i liked him? did i leave someone hurt? he is a cool person, a real sweet heart, but i've seen him as a friend for four years.

That makes me wonder...the guy i like who i've known for 5 years...does he see me like that? and will i have a chance with him??? well thats another entry...

Spell Check

Ok I must admit, I am the worlds worst speller. It's not even like I before E except after C type things. It's more like a tornado runs through words I try to spell and I turn out looking like a sad case to people. I constantly say 'How do you spell this?' and the person looks at me like a weirdo like are you serious that word is the easiest to spell then continues to spell the longest word known to man (Why I' asking them to spell a really long word I don't know). But seriously now I keep Microsoft Word up for alittle help when I need it, or type in into google and wait for the Did you mean... to pop up.

Are you telling me who I am?

I met this guy not to long ago. He seemed like a cool person. He was sarcastic just like me, and he didn't take offense when I would have a playful attitude. The only thing was that when he was leaving he wanted to tell me about me. Who else would know me more than me?! He actually sat me down and said 'let me tell you about you' and i was like 'yes please do! i want to know about me from you, when we just met today'.

That was a total turn off, I hate when people try to tell me who I am. Yeah you can get a feel for a person when you just meet but you can't know the completely just like that.

Not Trying

It's funny how people throw things in your face not knowing the damage their inflicting while doing so. They just think that it's simple words that should be taken with ease, but the fact of the matter is if the situation is a hurtful one your words are going to hurt more than you think. You say I didn't try, ok were you there when I started? when I laid down little hints here and there? no you weren't you just see the old me and and the nothing I use to do. And when I get mad and keep to myself aka the silent treatment you take offense. Well that's my defense towards you. Next time think before you speak.