The Turn Down

Have you ever had a time when you noticed your friend liked you more than a friend?

I have but it was me the one doing the liking. I have recently watched 'he's just not that into you' and it has been racking my brain for the longest. one thing is, one of the male characters said 'if a guy likes you he will make it happen'. and in the past lets just say none of them have made it happen.

But I have a friend, I knew him in High school. we were not that close. we talked a few time but nothing serious. I did not find him attractive at all, but we would still flirt some times. I think things may have gotten lost in translation. Just recently he's been facebooking me and stuff, saying how we don't hang out, and i'm like pick a day and we can. I've been home for a couple of months now and nothing. then just when I am about to leave he tries to set a date. and like everything he's saying to me is no longer the friend type, but romantic interest type. I play these things aloof all the time, and it has really helped me.

so the movie quote popped up in my head: 'if he likes you he'll make it happen', and so far he has been trying really hard to make it happen. texting me, facebooking me, just to see if i can go to the movies with him. I tried to turn him down in the nicest way by saying I can't go I am broke as heck so theres no way for me to take a bus or a train or see the movie. then he opts to pay the whole thing. Who doesn't like free things?! i sure as hell do, but not when they come with something like that behinde it. it feels weird to drag someone along and I wouldn't do that to anyone because i wouldn't want it to be done to me. so here I am, stuck in a jam trying to get out of this sticky situation when TA DA! it comes to me. he had said to meet him at ruggles and he'll pay the rest of the way, so i took that and ran with it. I told him I have no means of getting to ruggles because i have no money. problem solved, and no awkward incounter for me. but i'm left here feeling like crap. did i give him the run around? did i make him think i liked him? did i leave someone hurt? he is a cool person, a real sweet heart, but i've seen him as a friend for four years.

That makes me wonder...the guy i like who i've known for 5 years...does he see me like that? and will i have a chance with him??? well thats another entry...